Post Numbah 167!

Started: 4:23 PM Friday, October 14, 2011.

SATM: I’m not feeling too well, and I just figure I better get my feelings out somehow.

COFTW: Learning Nocturne in E Flat Major on piano. Frustrating, but so beautiful.

SPN: 170?

I have no clue what to say. To be honest, I’m so freaking surprised that I even remembered this blog and it’s only been what, 1 1/2 months? Seriously. Gah.

Anyways, I just came to get my feelings out because my mom just had a very serious talk with me about her and my dad.

Apparently, she’s not really feeling the relationship anymore. He just gets home after a long day of work to go to his computer and bet on horse racing, or some money thing. He doesn’t talk to her anymore and yeah… She feels that she does so much work at home (which I agree with) and that my dad doesn’t appreciate it. I asked if this was something that developed but apparently it’s been going on for pretty much the whole of their marriage. My mom said that she feels like she has to take care of him and tell him what to do in order to get my dad to do anything besides go on his computer or watch TV. I started feeling bad for my dad until I realized that everything she was saying was true. No matter how many times the same routine had gone through my dad was always the one who had to be told to do something before he actually did it. I feel that after their THIRTY years of marriage he could at least anticipate a little of what my mom expects to be done when she gets home. That being said, my dad has long work hours. He leaves as 6:30 AM and comes home between 7-10 depending on traffic. However, there’s always the weekend. As of right now, my mom works on Saturdays and she likes the house to be clean before she gets home at around 6-ish. My dad knows this, but whenever my mom forgets to tell him he’s always on his laptop or something not cleaning. Then she comes home, sees the house not clean and scolds everyone who didn’t try to clean, especially my dad. Apparently they don’t talk much about anything anymore, but if there’s one thing that happens, it’s my mom speaking loudly to my dad about how he never does anything.

This little conversation just happened about 15 minutes ago. About 14 minutes ago, I was crying but immediately stopped when my grandma came up behind me. I just… She said that she’s thinking about a divorce, and I don’t know how I would handle that. She told me, “I’m only telling you this because you’re a bright girl. I’m not telling you to pick sides, but I just want you to know that if it does happen, make the best choice you can and don’t regret it.” I tried smiling through my tears, but it didn’t work so I scurried off up here where I began the post. If anyone sees this, please offer some kind words, I could use them. I know that this sort of situation happens all the time, really, I’m aware of it. I just don’t know if there’s anything I should do, or if I should let them figure it out.

Anyways, bye. Hopefully the next post (hopefully soon), will be happier.

Plus, I should be getting ready for the football game later today.

_Maydelle_

SATM: A bit teary.

Ended: 4:37 PM Friday, October 14, 2011.

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