Post Numbah 170!

Started: 1:31 PM Saturday, December 31, 2011.

SATM: Holy crap, it’s the last day of 2011! Well, at least in California still. In other places, it’s already 2012, hah.

COFTW: Err, I dunno. Procrastinating on finishing a present for my dear friend, Pie.

SPN: 173.

WHAT’S UP?!

Yeah, so I’ve made a YouTube channel, check it out. MayLikesNoodles. It’s pretty boring right now, but it’s just for fun little videos and my attempts to contact British YouTubers. Ya know, pretty average stuff

Anyways, a reflection of this year.

I think this year, I’ve probably made more friends than I EVER have, EVER. Really, it’s sad, but it also makes me happy at the same time. I’ve never been a very social person, I’m often quiet, and I’m not outspoken, and I prefer to wait my turn rather than interrupt with something to say during conversations. I don’t think I’ve changed much from that. I think more people are reaching out to me. Maybe that has changed me. More than ever, I’m getting a longing to meet new people. While I love all my friends, well, I’m in high school. Things are bound to change. I’d like new friends. I feel like if I stay with the group of friends I have now, I won’t have the experiences I want to have. I don’t have a best friend whose shoulder I can cry on. I’m fairly certain of that. All those personal things in those movies about best friends, I don’t have that. I don’t know if I should be disappointed or what. Sometimes I wish I had the kind of friend. All I know is that I won’t find that friend in the group of friends I currently have. Actually, I don’t even know if the friends I have are REALLY my good friends. I have a few friends I call my best friends but when I look at it, they don’t have the qualities I’d like in my best friend. Out of my top 3 friends, I feel uncomfortable saying they’re my best friend. We don’t have too many things in common. I think the most is like 4 out of anything. I wish I had a friend I could tell anything to instead of just talking about a single topic ALL THE TIME with that person. It’s crazy. I want that to change.

I’m certainly not going tell any of my three top friends this, because then… It would just get awkward. I think that’s the one thing I HATE about all the friends in my little group. We’re all awkward. Sure everyone’s awkward, but when things get personal, BAM, super awkward.

Anyways, more about the good stuff this year. Like how I’ve changed slightly. I’ve become a better writer, that’s for sure. I mean, I wrote a freaking 12 page essay for my portfolio. I spent two weeks on it. Not literally, but I spent at least 15 man hours on that essay. It was totally worth it. I learned that it really does take hard work to get that 100% on any assignment. I learned that I can’t be lazy. I learned that I need a lot more sleep than I thought. I learned that saving money is actually a really big deal. I learned that being a friend is more than just hanging out and talking about a single subject. I learned that cleaning my room is actually really beneficial to me. I learned that life is short. I learned that reading can be an awesome experience once you start to understand each work of whatever you’re reading. I learned that procrastinating is evil. I learned that talking more is great and I should do it more often. I learned that taking pictures can be fun. I learned that I actually like smiling. I learned that performing on stage is super-nerve wracking, but it’s totally awesome when you’ve done it perfectly. I learned that I’m a lot more dependent than I thought. I learned that being girly is okay sometimes. I learned that Nerf guns are REALLY fun. I learned that drawing is a pain in the ass. I learned that it’s okay to wear glasses instead of contacts. I learned that I’m a lot more crafty then I look. I learned that I can really cruel sometimes. I learned that I can be surprisingly kind too. I learned that green tea doesn’t taste that bad. I learned that being yourself is the best thing you can do.

I learned TONS more, and I hope to learn even more in the upcoming year.

Anyways, Happy New Year.

_Maydelle_

SATM: Satisfied.

Btw, see ya when I see ya. No promises

Ended: 1:49 PM Saturday, December 31, 2011. Last post of the year, BOO YAH!